the date...

man, I was so nervous when I went to that date...

I realy like that girl, and that she wants to meet me again, even though she has a boyfriend, well, it tells me that I am still in the game - as the players call it.

Anyway, I went today, met her in some big bar, around 7:30 pm...

And my, I was so nervous. I didn't know what to tell, didn't know what to talk about. It is so funny that all the sudden, all the smalltalk dries out. It like a section of your brane shuts down, leaving a "out of order"-sighn outside, and no directions to a substitute.

Anyway, I hated that bar. I mean, it is a nice bar and all, and even though they brought us a different beer than the one we orderd, I can not say a lot of bad things about that bar. It was ok. But I hated it, because I was not comfortable myself.

After we finished that first beer, and after I had taled about all sorts of garbage, just no importand toppic, I asked her if we could leave the bar.

It was fine with her, and so we went (because it is her neighbourhood) to a bar she recomended. It is the longest days of the years right now, and so we went through a big park, took a short look at a realy empty bar she liked (but not empty of course) and setteld at a bar called "MIR" - like the russian spacestation.

Nice bar. I orderd some beer for the both of us, and we started talking. Not the nonsens from the other bar, serious stuff.

She likes to spy on me. To spy on my thoughts. I have to be carefull not to reveal to much about myself to her, because she does not like to give to much in return.

Well, finaly I made her talk about herself. After I made her some pretty serious compliments. After I told her that when she asked me for my email per SMS (and I knew that she would tell me that there is someone) I went to sport, did a big big big workout, so when I would come back, I would not hate the mail so much she would send.

Anyway, at some point we talked about her.

Nice talk. Tough woman.

Anyway, she told me about the guy she is with right now.

Told me he was a cook, and a cocain-addict.

Now, I hate cocain-addicts, because I have only met ashole personalitys on cocain.

I also know that a cook is a competition that is pretty tough to beat with woman, even "I work in TV" does not level up to that.

So I let her talk and all, and I learnd from her that he might cook pretty good, but he is no cook. He works in a kittchen, but that is all.
You see, there is a sort of german kind of pizza, called "Flammkuchen". Basicly it is a pizza without tomatosauce. Anyway, he works in a restaurant, and his job is to prepare exactly this "pizza". Nothing more. So, from "chef of a kitchen" he went to "pizza-cook". Not so high up there anymore.

Anyway, she gave me some good oportunitys to make a joke about him (or two), and even tough I thought I would never be able to pull it off, I actualy DID TELL HER: "Drop that zero and get with the hero!"

I expected a instant slap, but instead she laughet!!!!

I knew then that there was something possible for me.

Anyway, I made her lots of compliments, and she did not reject one of them.... and in the end we kissed.

Not the passionate kiss, the "I want you now, on that table, and I dont care what others think" - kind of kiss.... ...because she felt guilty about her pizza-guy.

She told me to call her in two months, to go out and meet woman, to get back to her when I had my fun... ...I told her I would not be "lowered expectaions" or second choice for her.

I mean, if I get this woman, I want her because of my own power, not because some cocain-pizza-dude fucked up... NEVER!

Anyway, we kissed a bit, I drove her home in a cab, and we kissed some more in front of her door. Gentleman that I am, I didn't went up with her.... not that she would have let me in the first place, but it was good that she didn't have to say "NO".

Anyway, I got more from her this evening than I ever expected, and I only wrote half the stuff down that happend....


OK OK, I didn't hide anything big from you all.... don't wory!!



Anyway, I will keep you updated!

so long